Pure

Night time slows, raindrops splash rainbows
perhaps someone you know, could sparkle and shine
as daydreams slide to colour from shadow
picture the moonglow, that dazzles my eyes
and I love you

Just lying smiling in the dark
shooting stars around your heart
dreams come bouncing in your head
pure and simple everytime
now you're crying in your sleep
I wish you'd never learnt to weep
don't sell the dreams you should be keeping
pure and simple everytime

Dreams of sights, of sleigh rides in seasons
where feelings not reasons, can make you decide
as leaves pour down, splash autumn on gardens
as colder nights harden, their moonlit delights
and I love you

Just lying smiling in the dark
shooting stars around your heart
dreams come bouncing in your head
pure and simple everytime
now you're crying in your sleep
I wish you'd never learnt to weep
don't sell the dreams you should be keeping
pure and simple everytime

Look at me with starry eyes
push me up to starry skies
there's stardust in my head
pure and simple everytime
fresh and deep as oceans new
shiver at the sight of you
I'll sing a softer tune
pure and simple over you

If love's the truth then look no lies
and let me swin around your eyes
I've found a place i'll never leave
shut my mouth and just believe
love is the truth I realize
not a stream of pretty lies
to use us up and waste our time

Lying smiling in the dark
shooting stars around your heart
dreams come bouncing in your head
pure and simple everytime
now you're crying in your sleep
I wish you'd never learnt to weep
don't sell the dreams you should be keeping
pure and simple everytime

Look at me with starry eyes
push me up to starry skies
there's stardust in my head
pure and simple everytime
fresh and deep as oceans new
shiver at the sight of you
I'll sing a softer tune
pure and simple over you
pure and simple just for you

LEAVING TODAY!!!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH! SO EXCITED!!! Vancouver today, London on Sunday!

The consequence of sounds.

My rhyme ain't good just yet, my brain and tongue just met, and they ain't friends so far. My words don’t travel far, they tangle in my hair and tend to go nowhere. They grow right back inside, right past my brain and eyes into my stomach juice, where they don’t serve my juice. All melted calories, nutrition values and I absorb back in the words right through my skin. They sit there festering inside my bowels. The consonants and vowels, the consequence of sounds, the consonants and vowels. The consequence of sounds. Got a soundtrack in my mind; all the time kids screamin' from too much beat up and they don't even rhyme. They just stand there, on a street corner, skin tucked in and meat side out and shot and I’d like to turn them down but there ain't no knob. Run into picket fences, not into picket lines. All this hippie shit for the 60's and another cliché for our time. One of these days your heart will just stop ticking and they sorta just don't find you till your cubicle is reeking. The consonants and vowels, the consequence of sounds, the consonants and vowels. The consequence of sounds. Did you know that the gravedigger's still gettin' stuck in the machine, even tough it's a whole other daydream, another town it's another world, where the kids are asleep, where the loans are paid and the lawns are mowed. Whad'ya think? All the gravediggers were gone? Just cause one song is done, there’s always another one waiting right around the bend till this one ends. Then it begins quickly, then it starts all over again.The weather report keeps on tossing and turning, predicting and warning,
and warning and warning of, possibly it could be news publications and possibly it could be news TV stations. That very same morning right next to her coffee. She noticed some bleeding and heard hollow coughing and National Geographic was being too graphic. All she had wanted to know was the traffic. “The worlds got a nosebleed” it said, “And we’re flooding but we keep on cutting
The trees and the forests!”. We keep on paying those freaks on the TV who claim they will save us but want to enslave us. Sweating like demons they scream through our speakers but we leave the sound on 'cause silence is harder.
And no one’s the killer and no one’s the martyr. The world that has made us can no longer contain us and profits are silent then rotting away 'cause the consonants and vowels, the consequence of sounds, the consonants and vowels. The consequence of sounds. My rhyme ain't good just yet, my brain and tongue just met, and they aint friends so far. My words don't travel far, they tangle in my hair, and tend to go nowhere. They grow right back inside, right past my brain and eyes into my stomach juice, where they don't serve my juice. All melted calories, nutrition values and I absorb back in the words right through my skin. They sit there festering inside my bowels. The consonants and vowels, the consequence of sounds, the consonants and vowels. The consequence of sounds.

Farewell Canada!

Hokay! SO! I am moving. To England. In NINE sleeps. SCAAAAAARY! SO EXCITED! I'll have my own laptop over there, so I'll definitely update a LOT. So I'm thinking that (between two jobs and packing that is) I need to spend as much time with everyone here as I can before I go.

I leave on Friday, May 23rd at 3pm. I'll be spending the night at my sister Apryl's house and then leaving the country the next day at 3:50pm on the 24th. I get to London's Gatwick Intl. Airport at 9:30am on the 25th. Yeaaaaah, long flight. I'll deal. So for those of you who don't know, I'm moving to a city called Solihull, a suburb of Birmingham, right in the middle of the country. I'll be living with the Smith family which consists of Michelle, Steven, Katie and Charlotte and they are WONDERFUL. Michelle is the mother and is originally from the U.S. Steven is the dad and he's from England. Katie is four years old and is just the cutest little thing. Charlotte is adorable too, she's only 18 months old. Basically I'll be like a nanny. I'm REALLY excited. The plan is to stay for about a year, and then take it from there.

If anyone wants to know anything else, give me a shout!

BC Ferries!

So I officially have two jobs! I start at BC Ferries tomorrow! Yay!

Displaced Person.

So today I had my first experience as an evacuee. At first it was really exciting... but after two hours of sitting in Safeway (however much I LOVE Safeway) freezing cold (BECAUSE OF THE SNOW, yes SNOW) and with the beginnings of a migraine, I was tiring of it. I'm sure those of you who don't already know the situation in Rupert right now must be wondering what on earth I'm talking about.

Well, APPARENTLY.. (there are many rumours) there was a bomb threat to either the post office or DFO (department of fisheries and oceans) at about 3pm and almost all of the buildings downtown were evacuated, including Scotiabank. So thinking I would just go home, I walked towards my apartment. Well, was I ever mistaken. It is now 11pm, and there is still no access to my block, so we're spending the night at mom's friend Shelly's house.

There's not a ton left to say, I have a picture or two to put on here, but I don't think I'll do it til I get home, whenever that is. I'll update if I find out anything else interesting.

Toodles.

I am the Walrus.

Hola!

So I haven't really updated since the 31st, besides chunks of lyrics from random songs. That's how I roll. Not tons to talk about, really.. Work has been going really well, I love it. Today was my first day at the wicket by myself. I was TRES EXCELLENTE. I balanced out perfectly and everything was merry!

In other job news, I have a job interview for BC Ferries next Tuesday. SO excited for it. I think I will be awesome in the interview. I applied for a terminal job so it wouldn't interfere with work at the bank. If (when) I get the job I would be working late nights and early mornings. $19 an hour! whooo! I think I am kind of a shoe-in because I've had TONS of experience with BC Ferries, both good and bad and I am just awesome in general. I don't know.. I feel really good about it. You guys (assuming that anyone reads my blog) should wish me luck.

Not a lot else is new.. Hung out with Maggie a bunch on the weekend, that was nice. I don't see that kid as much as I used to and I miss it. Or her, I guess! Speaking of nieces, Janine and Jamie are thinking that the baby is coming any day now. I am so incredibly excited for them. I can't waaaaait! It's from the same gene pool as I am, so it should be an amazingly good looking baby, me thinks. :P. I wish I could be down there for all of this, but work keeps me away. I booked two weeks off from scotiabank in June to go down, but if I get the BC Ferries job I might not be able to go when I planned. Althouuuugh, if I DO get the BCF job I would get free fare to go down there, just a little later than planned. I guess not being able to do what you want when you want to is part of being an adult.

It's kind of funny actually, because I figured when I was younger that I would be able to do what I want when I wanted to when I was "All-Grown-Up". I don't think I quite got the fact that "All-Grown-Up" meant having a lot more responsibility and that yes, I while I could technically do whatever I wanted to, it would probably not be the wisest decision to do so.
Go figure.

EXCITING NEWS! My beloved Juliaaaar is coming home sooonsoonsoon. I am SOO excited to see her. You aren't supposed to go this long without seeing your best friend. She graduated from her "Outtatown" program on Sunday, and is at this moment on her way to or in Nanaimo to see B-lair. I'm proooud of her. I miss her though. I miss a lot of people. Sigh.

I think that's enough out of me for now.

CIAO!

All my loving.

I'll pretend that I'm kissing
The lips I am missing
And hope that my dreams will come true.

In the city of blinding lights.

Don't look before you laugh
Look ugly in a photograph
Flash bulbs purple irises
The camera can't see

Black

I know someday you'll have a beautiful life, I know you'll be a sun in somebody else's sky, but why.. Why, why can't it be, why can't it be mine?

A weekend of sun and fun.. ... I rhyme.

Woo! Who else loves an incredibly sunny weekend? I sure do. I started out by having a bit of a girls night with Aren and Kaaaaaaari. That was fun! They both had never seen Anchorman, so we watched that. I'm pretty sure it was enjoyed by all of us.

A few pictures from Friday night.



Saturday morning I ended up going to Mount Layton Hot Springs with Andrew, Maggie and Maggie's friend Robin. All in all, it was a pretty great time, with FABULOUS weather making the drive to terrace and back amazing. We spent the night in the hot springs' hotel, and the girls were in for a late night anyways when getting out of the pool at 9pm Andrew decided to let them watch a movie before bed, but then the VCR wouldn't work. An hour and three different VCR's later, we began watching Dr. Doolittle. I knew by the first scene (when a child sniffs his principals bottom because his dog told him its how you greet and get to know other people, like shaking a hand) that the girls would love it. Andrew fell asleep within the first ten minutes and much to the delight to the pair of 9-year-olds, we stayed up watching it until its end, at 12:20 am. Quite a feat for two girls who had been swimming all day.

The 'Turtle Slides" at the hot springs.
Other pictures of the hotsprings.


So annnnnnyways, we headed home Sunday morning after a quick swim and breakfast. I was home for about an hour when I was (somewhat reluctantly, I must say) dragged out on another excursion. This time the outing was with Mum, Maggie and two of Mum's friends. We adventured out to Glass Beach. It's about halfway down the old cannery road in Port Ed, and it's wonderful. There used to be an old restaurant there, but it burned down decades ago, leaving behind thousands of broken glasses, plates, bowls and other treasures. Years of waves and crashing and rubbing against sand and rocks have made them soft and pretty. Mum has BAGS and BAGS of sea glass all around the house from over the years. It ended up being a really great day. It was so warm that at one point I was down to just my tank top. Anyways, here's a few of my favourite pictures of the day!

Glass and the sun.
A cool rock I found with some sort of worm markings.. but into 3 quarters of a heart.My shoe , glass and some rocks.Some nature.
Through the ...root thing.
Maggie on the tree horse.

Maybe.

Maybe all you can do is hope to end up with the right regrets...

Too True.

"Being defeated is often temporary, giving up makes it permanent."
-Marilyn Von Savant

Where Does The Good Go?

Where do you go with your broken heart in tow? What do you do with the left over you? And how do you know when to let go? Where does the good go? Where does the good go? Look me in the eye and tell me you don't find me attractive, look me in the heart and tell me you won't go. Look me in the eye and promise no love's like our love, look me in the heart and unbreak broken. It won't happen. It's love that leaves and breaks the seal of always thinking you would be real happy and healthy, strong and calm. Where does the good go? Where does the good go? Where do you go when you're in love and the world knows? How do you live so happily while I am sad and broken down? Where does the good go? Where does the good go?

Jeremiah 29:11/ Isaiah 41:10

Jeremiah 29:11
"For you know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

Isaiah 41:10
"I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous hand."

I'm Yours-Jason Mraz

Well you done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but you're so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracks
and now I'm trying to get back
Before the cool done run out
I'll be giving it my bestest
Nothing's going to stop me but divine intervention
I reckon its again my turn to win some or learn some

I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love
Listen to the music of the moment maybe sing with me
Ah, la peaceful melodies
It's your God-forsaken right to be loved love loved love love

So I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

I've been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror
And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer
But my breath fogged up the glass
And so I drew a new face and laughed
I guess what I'm saying is there ain't no better reason
To rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons
It's what we aim to do
Our name is our virtue

I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

Well no no, well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love love
Listen to the music of the moment come and dance with me
ah, la one big family (2nd time: ah, la happy family)
It's your God-forsaken right to be loved love love love

I won't hesitate no more
Oh no more no more no more
It's your God-forsaken right to be loved, I'm sure
Theres no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

No I won't hesitate no more, no more
This cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours, I'm yours

Life.

"Life doesn't give you the people you want; it gives you the people you need - to help you, to hurt you, to love you, to leave you and to help make you into the person you were meant to be"

Ch-ch-ch-chaaaanges!

Okay... So I don't think that anyone has discovered this blog yet, which is probably a good thing as I haven't been to it myself since way back in September. Whoa. Neglecting it much? Yuuuuuuh I think so.
So down below are a couple of notes from facebook that I thought I might as well add.. and I added them today sooo yus. They're a tad out of date.... but thats okay.

I wish I had more to talk about.. hmm. Wellllll I got a job, thats a good one. I am now officially a teller for Scotiabank! yipee! I shall soon be completely desensitized to money. Well, at least other peoples money. I remember once I was there doing some banking of my own, and Gerry was working. He had a handful of $20 bills and there must have been more than a few thousand dollars just sitting there in his hands. I was like "Whoaaaaaaaaaa Gerry!" and he was told me something along the lines of he's used to it and doesn't really think of it as money anymore.

So a job means I'm one step closer to moving. I talk about moving and all that in the Gubbuuuh facebook note down below, so I won't do the whole shpiel all over again. I'll just say that despite recent.. life changes, Nanaimo is still the plan.

Due to the job however, I am not sure if I'll be able to make it down to see my sister Janine or her baby right away. I guess I'll have to see how soon they let me take time off. I'm really hoping they'll let me. I'm so excited for it. The baby I mean. Yeeeeeeee!

Yesterday I said farewell to all of the kids going on the youthtrip. I feel so old. This is the first time in 6 years that I haven't gone on it. Nuts eh? I think so. JEALOUS GUYS!

Anyways I'm going to go get some more Starbucks and perhaps wander about town. If anyone is looking for a new song to obsess over, I may just have it for you. I highly recommend "I'm Yours" by Jason Mraz. SOO GOOD.

Alright Kiddies. Byyebye!

Barack Obama Note from facebook written on Fri Feb 15th

"It was a creed written into the founding documents that declared the destiny of the nation, yes we can. It was whispered by slaves and abolitionists as they blazed a trail towards freedom through the darkest of nights, yes we can. It was sung by immigrants as they struck out from distant shores and pioneers who pushed westwards against an unforgiving wilderness, yes we can. It was the call of workers who organized, women who reached for the ballot, a president who chose the moon as our new frontier and a King who took us to the mountain top and pointed the way to the promised land, yes we can to justice and equality. Yes we can to opportunity and prosperity. Yes we can heal this nation. Yes we can repair this world. Yes we can. We know the battle ahead will be long, but always remember that no matter what obstacles stand in our way, nothing can stand in the way of the power of millions of voices calling for change. We have been told we cannot do this by a chorus of cynics…they will only grow louder and more dissonant. We’ve been asked to pause for a reality check. We’ve been warned against offering the people of this nation false hope.But in the unlikely story that is America, there has never been anything false about hope. Now the hopes of the little girl who goes to the crumbling school in Dillon are the same as the dreams of the boy who learns on the streets of L.A. And so tomorrow, as we take the campaign south and west, as we learn that the struggles of the textile workers in Spartanburg, SC, are not so different as the dishwasher in Las Vegas, We will remember that there is something happening in America, that we are not as divided as our politics suggest, that we are one people, we are one nation, and together we will begin the next great chapter in the American story with three words that will ring from coast to coast, from sea to shining sea, yes we can."

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Anywho, I've been paying close attention to the campaigning going on in the US the last few months and just thought that I would put that out there, because its pretty cool. It's almost starting to look like the next American president for the first time in history will not be some old white guy. The change would be nice. Even though we aren't Americans, it still matters to us what goes on there, because no matter what it will undoubtedly affect Canada as a nation, as well as the rest of the world.

Some links:

Obama's full speech in Nashua, New Hampshire on Jan. 8/08:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fe751kMBwms&feature=related

Video produced by will.i.am making this part of the speech into a song:
http://www.yeswecansong.com (<--REALLY AWESOME.) Obama's official campaign website: http://www.barackobama.com/

And his facebook fan thing... but I don't know if its officially made by him, but its got links to several videos, speeches, things like that:
http://www.facebook.com/barackobama?ref=nf